i'm sorry. it's my fault. i should not have told you today. i was in dilemma on whether even to tell you or not. i was so afraid. the first thing that came to my mind was, will our relationship end just like that? because of this. i don't know what was i thinking at all. why did i even tell you this fucking news today. why cant i just wait for a week later or something. why am i so dumb. i made you so emotional during ur special day. i'm sorry. what was i even thinking. just hate myself. i want you to be happy. i don't know what's going to happen to us after the problem is solved. i'm just so scared.